Archive for March 10th, 2008|Daily archive page
Can’t think ..
Comments (11)The weekend I had was great (big 
to the Friday crowd, and big 
to those who missed it .. we missed you), and I managed to absent myself from home and Pig for most of it .. a fact that is probably going to rear it’s ugly head very soon and probably tonight! The thought of having another set-to with Pig is making my insides knotted, I can’t concentrate on anything for any length of time .. and certainly am not remembering anything .. in fact, I’m not even listening most of the time – the lights are on but there is absolutely no-one at home! The desire to opt out of life is very high (but that’s the cowards way out – it’s just I am very very scared) .. that or should I just go to sleep until it is all over.
I saw my mum on Friday evening and bit the bullet and told her .. her immediate response was .. “we’ll buy him out” .. she’s since talked to the rest of the family and they are behind me .. so forget if I’ve ever said anything bad about them please!
But now I don’t really know what to do .. I need to get the house valued, I know that .. but then what? Certainly right now I am not in the right frame of mind to think logically about the whys and wherefores .. the one thing I do know I want is, a small place of my own, where I can shut my own front door and not let anyone in unless I want to! However the road to that particular place is going to be long and very bumpy! At the moment, mentally, I’m a bit fucked!
