After lunch texting ..

When I got “home” I had a message from Dom

So what’s Danderdandan like then?

A bit like you .. as expected!  A blog coming later!  a good time was had! x

What, long hair, devastatingly handsome, tragically broken?  Or just a geek? (and yes I have corrected your spelling Dom!)

Just a geek!

Thrrpt Glad you had fun. (I am assuming that the Thrrpt was a raspberrry!)

We will arrange a lunchtime/evening “meet” one day!!

Lunch!

Today I had lunch with … Dan … thank you I thoroughly enjoyed myself .. but I think I owe you some money – really!!

Despite .. 1) Dan not eating all his greens (it was a rather large on the lettuce side for a salad, I must admit) and me not finishing a pannini (spelling? .. Dom?); and 2) Dan (supposedly) running out of things to talk about .. and me NOT and my big gob running away with me (for which I profusely apologise .. I don’t get out much!)

I was in Arguuus (buying an iron for The Admirer – how crass is that?) when I got a text saying he was a tad early and where he was .. when I got there (several minutes later) I rang Dan, suddenly realising that a bloke I had never met before and who’s picture on Facebook is that of an 80’s kiddies programme … was actually real!  He was trying to look very non-conspicuous leaning against a pillar .. but I (oh she of very large brain .. or something(s)) recognised him, despite his Pob Book of Face picture … Dan is Dan! 

and by the way, Kingston was heaving today so I should congratulate myself on realising of all the hunky(?) men around .. which was he!

So we had lunch, and I met some people I haven’t seen in an age (and don’t necessarily want/need to see again) .. which was odd (but then I suppose you always meet people you don’t expect to see) .. but then again I was having lunch with a friend .. so what is wrong with that?!  Anyway, I had a laugh and as I have said, thoroughly enjoyed myself .. obviously this is MY side of the story!

I even took Dan home … but then I am good like that!!!!

However after lunch, having decided that there was no shop that I wanted to enter because of the crowds (and the fact I hate shopping) .. oh thank you “great interwebulator” for the ability to shop on-line and send it back if I don’t like it .. I’ll just do my shopping virtually in future .. Dan needed some drain cleaner .. so I went with him to buy it (like I’d got a lot more planned for today?).. and bless .. he got his post up before me .. but here it is !!  Now I am really worried .. not that I went to get the drain cleaner with him, but that he took a photo and posted it!

Crazy Mixed Up Kid?!

I started this as “I escaped”, but it has gone off on a tangent and gets a bit mad in the middle .. forgive me .. (I never said I was right in the head!)

So .. I escaped ..

.. got 54 million (ok, slight exaggeration) text messages and several voicemail messages from Pig .. one of which was how did he put the washing machine on?  Er … put the powder and softener in and press the start button .. but DON’T!  My donkey (which I’ve had since I was 3 is in there .. he needs gentle treatment .. he is very old and I’m not actually sure he will survive the trip) .. so leave it!

I’m not feeling great about things, about where I am, the direction I am going in … a bit confused you might say .. I know what I need to do, I’m just having great difficulty doing it! (that may sound cryptic, but I’m really having “head is fucked” problems).

(here comes the mad bit)

I am being told that I am “hard” and “defensive” by one particular person – I have explained (or tried to) that this week is going to be very difficult for me .. on many levels.  Pig won’t remember (I have to remember all his shit), but on Thursday, two years ago my dad died.

Two years ago on Monday I saw my dad for the last time and we had an argument (about a sodding computer of all things) .. I left on good terms, making sure I told him I loved him, but I didn’t see him again until after it was all over (all of 30 minutes).. and I am having difficulty dealing with that!  I know I shouldn’t beat myself up, I had been every other day to see him and feed him his tea for nearly three weeks up till then, alternating with Icklesis.  It was Easter weekend, Number 1 Sis had come over from the US and she saw him, SisterIcan’tStand had been to see him .. was I not allowed a little time off?  The answer to that is yes, but the bugger upped and died on Easter Monday … there are other issues but I’m not going into them here, or right now .. I still can’t really face it!

(back to normal????)

This is the first full “day off” I’ve had for about 4 weeks where I don’t need to be anywhere or do anything!  I was supposed to be doing the “yard” from today but it appears that starts tomorrow, so I even managed to lie in .. the fact that I didn’t actually go to bed till 4.00 I’m ignoring (sorry Dom .. could have come!  (there would be a sad face smiley in there, but for some reason the computer is ignoring it!)

I am going shopping in a bit (something I loathe), but hopefully will meet up with a fellow blogger for some lunch (I may comment on his geekiness later - no cheeky smiley as I don’t think this post loves me!)  .. although I’ll probably be a bit light on the actual food bit.

Thanks for listening!

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