Ok, so ..

yesterday I joined the gym .. now I just have to motivate myself to get out of bed in the morning and go!

But it’s pretty cool and they provide you with towels and shampoo and shower gel and stuff .. I wonder if they would provide me with a service for actually doing the exercise for me?

Pissed Off!

I got a text from a friend on Monday to say that one of his photos taken at Amazona Zoo was now on sale in the gift shop as fridge magnets, tiles etc … I was soo pleased for him!

I tried to show the Admirer some of the photos last night as one of my Book of Face profile pictures is one of these photos .. he wasn’t interested, showed no interest and preferred to ignore me and play Hot Shots on the Book of Face .. he then wondered why I shut down my computer, shut up and watched the crap film he insisited on having on – Napoleon Dynamite (???)

And he is wondering why I am being distant?

Edit: I am so angry I could actually cry right now!

Work is ..

rapidly going from bad to worse.  It does not help that neither myself nor the boss has anything to do – consequence, he goes to the pub for 3 hours at lunchtime and gets nasty with it .. and I am bored to tears.

Yesterday I put the phone down on him.  The conversation rang along the lines ..

Boss: “What day is 13th August and what have I got on”;

Me: “The 13th is a Wednesday and there is nothing in the diary at the moment”;

Boss: “Ok, so stick in the diary “65 at 1.00 pm” .. (which I duly did – although not knowing what 65 meant other than probably somebody’s birthday and he was probably going to go to lunch and get pisseder than usual) .. “right pass me onto my son”

There were 3 witnesses to the conversation about the date and one to me writing it in the diary …

Boss then speaks to his son, I hear the 15th mentioned and am then asked the question across the office “when is K’s birthday?” ??????  Err, and I’m supposed to know that how???  The bloke doesn’t work for us, and other than me making him coffee and him bringing in the odd bacon roll on a Friday, have very little inter-reaction with him .. so apologies, my crystal ball appears to be malfunctioning and cannot tell me the answer to that!

The boss comes back on to me ..

Boss: “why did you tell me the 15th was a Wednesday?”

Me: “I didn’t, you asked me what day the 13th was”

Boss: “I didn’t, have you got your facts straight?  I distinctly asked you about the 15th”

Me: “Nope, boss if you’d asked me about the 15th, I’d have told you it was a Friday – you.asked.me.about.the.13th.which.is.a.Wednesday.”

Boss: “I think if you check your facts …” (at which point he basically acuses me of lying to him and that he was right and I, very definitely wrong).

at.which.point.I.put.the.phone.down.and.walked.out.

He rang the switchboard, but they were under instruction that I was “in the loo” .. his words to that were that “I obviously didn’t want to talk to him” .. funny eh??

He’s not mentioned yesterday today!

This morning however he screamed at me because the aircon wasn’t on .. the caretaker puts the unit on each morning (as no-one appears to be able to work out the timer) but this morning he hadn’t .. it’s not hot in here after the rain of last night .. therefore we don’t actually need it on (and I am currently sat in my jacket as I am cold) .. but he screams at me “turn the aircon back on” .. to which I replied “I never turned it off” but duly switched it on ..

Right now, I don’t need this job, I could afford to take a month or so off and am rapidly coming to the conlusion that my health and sanity are suffering by my staying here – I’ve never not really wanted to come to work, now every day is a grind getting out of bed and into the frame of mind to get ready for work – I’m late daily! 

I know I’ve whinged about my job and boss before (but with the added Pig situation and his lack of control over money, I’ve toughed it out) but I am rapidly coming to the conclusion that there has to be more to life than the danger money I earn working for the twat, that I do and that now I’m free of one idiot, mebbe I should make that free of two!!

Especially now that my home life is very happy!

Apologies ….

I am getting to grips with the new ‘puter and have added some of you to my favourites .. you will all be there eventually .. just it’s taking a little while … I will comment as and when i can so you know who I am!!  I may be in a field, I may be in bed .. but I’ll get there …

I’m on 3 if anyone spots me in their stats!

Conversations ..

The following is a short excerpt from an MSN conversation of today .. it has been edited as some of it was probably far too boring for most ( ) … 

Itchy says:  helloooooooo

Cat says: hiya .. on The Admirer’s ‘puter

Cat says: how are you???

Itchy says: sleeeepy

Itchy says: just woke up!

Cat says: meeee tooo .. bit hungover too

Cat says: and think I might be getting The Admirer’s “man flu”

Cat says: although I think I’m bunged up because it’s muggy

Itchy says : well i’m not. medication induced stupor perhaps, hangover no

Cat says: not really hangover .. just de-hydrated and tired

Cat says: it’s all been a bit emotional here!

Itchy says: what’s been going on?

Itchy says: not really spoken to you alll week!

Cat says: potted version

Cat says: The Admirer has daughter (5)

Itchy says: yup

Cat says: mother is a coniving cow – already has son by another man (sperm donor?)

Cat says: The Admirer is supposed to have daughter for a week and wanted to take her to Cornwall

Cat says: mother said “too far” .. so holiday cancelled

Cat says: mother still thought The Admirer taking her for the week ..

Itchy says: I see a problem here

Cat says: confusion, and one little girl being hurt .. I can’t stand it

Cat says: but the mother is being (as far as I can see) controlling

Cat says: it’s always on her terms

Cat says: she is using E to get at The Admirer

Cat says: which isn’t right

Itchy says: nope

Cat says: although she can’t “see” it

Cat says: it just brought up issues in my life!

Itchy says: ?

Itchy says: not very fair of mother to say ‘you can have her but only do x or y’

Itchy says: makes it more like child minding

Cat says: exactly!

Cat says: The Admirer wanted her to have a termination (not sure how I feel on that one) but she insisted on having her .. now she is holding him to ransom

Cat says: she’s here now, we can’t change that

Itchy says: yup

Cat says: but she said “E was apprehensive” about going away

Cat says: his reply was “we would have dealt with it” ..

Itchy says: hmmmm

Cat says: but a kiddie given a beach, unlimited ice cream .. ???

Itchy says: lol

Cat says: = fairly odd if they don’t enjoy it!

Cat says: she also copied one of the e:mails to his parents

Itchy says: ?

Cat says: in her reply she used his words and then added her comment .. funnily she skipped that paragraph and didn’t comment on it!

Cat says: he got fed up with shouting at her and went the e:mail route

Cat says: actually I think she went first with the e:mails

Itchy says: just shout by email instead

Cat says: but at least you can think about wording etc …

Itchy says: true

Cat says: not the best medium I agree, because it is then there in perpetuity .. (right word?)

Itchy says: uhuh

Cat says: I can’t remember what W is like .. (he’s had so many .. lol)

Cat says: actually he’s really quite loyal .. just mis-guided

Cat says: we used to have a laugh when he came into the pub with “someone new” …

Cat says: didn’t mean to say it didn’t last, it wasn’t his sister .. we just had a giggle .. “there’s The Admirer with another one!”

Itchy says: remember, you are that other one now!

Cat says: nope, we are now going to the pub .. EVERYONE knows

Cat says: he wouldn’t do that to me .. I’m too well “liked” as it were

Cat says: The V is that last place I’d like to be shat on!

Cat says: and he knows it!

Itchy says: so what’s the plan now – he got her for the week and doing other things?

Cat says: nope .. told her he doesn’t want to see E for the “foreseeable future” because it “obviously upsets her” (and him)

Itchy says: :S

Cat says: exactly, and it will probably all change but if seeing her causes problems .. surely not seeing her will cause less .. she’s only 5!

Itchy says: just need to be mindful of what she is likely to want…..

Cat says: ?? “she” .. as in mum??

Itchy says: nooo

Itchy says: stepping away completely could be very bad for his relationnship with E long-term

Cat says: I know that, he knows that, but the mother is poisoning her anyway

Cat says: I’ve told him to write a letter or something for a birthday .. give it to a solicitor on the instruction that it is sent to her at a certain point (type of thing) explaining HIS position

Cat says: from my point of view I never wanted children (would have been a great mum) but far far too selfish ..

Cat says: I could never do what this woman has done and then hold someone to ransom over it

Cat says: her choice – therefore she should not make demands ..

Itchy says: child in middle

Itchy says: easy to forget in argument

Cat says: and to get pregnant in this day and age is IRRESPONSIBLE .. so she obviously had a “game plan”

Cat says: oooh I know and I keep telling The Admirer that there is a little girl who wants both a mummy and daddy

Cat says: it’s not HER fault

Cat says: so stop playing games and be adults!

Cat says: (easy to say)

Itchy says: letter thing could work against that in my view

Cat says: sorry … just forwarding a message “I haven’t read” .. eeek

Cat says: part of The Admirer’s reply to her yesterday ..

Cat says:

“I notice that you copied my parents on your mail; did you think that would make a difference to the outcome? I seem to remember you writing to my sister ……… that worked too! (it pushed my sister further away from E than she was already!) My parents are fully aware of the situation and always will be. Trying to stay calm, I would ask that you do not try and play my family against each other ……… there will be only one winner there!

Cat says: she completely missed commenting on that one!!

Itchy says: very strange

Cat says: it’s emotional blackmail!

Cat says: she’s trying to make him feel he is the bad person .. and as an outsider I can see it!

Cat says: my tag to forwarding the e:mail

“ok, so I’ve read it .. because to forward it I had to open it ..

My thoughts are .. she completely ignored the e:mailing/writing to family thing .. I think you hit a nerve there!

She’s trying to make you feel guilty and again using E as a pawn in the whole thing (already bringing up one child as a “single” parent – she knew what she was about!) .. it.is.emotional.blackmail!

You are not a bad person, if she is half the mother she thinks she is, she will explain to E (at some point) how things are/were/will be .. mebbe I’m just that type of person, but if I were in her situation, I’d be “as and when” – but hell that’s me!

I’m sorry, the reply has made me quite angry .. I can see it from an “outsider’s” point of view .. it’s manipulative .. do what you think is best hun

Cat says: ??

Itchy says: all you can say really

Cat says: exactly!

Cat says: will stop ranting now .. what are you up to today?

Itchy says: nuffink

Itchy says: lazy day

Cat says: nuffink??

Cat says: best you get over to my mum’s and help me catalogue books .. sitting in the shade with an iced tea!

Itchy says: i’ve gone chav

Cat says: actually the need to sit in the sun is greater than the need to catalogue books ..

Itchy says: lol

Cat says: but i can kill 2 birds with one stone

Cat says: I need to sort out what I want to get rid of and what I want to keep

Cat says: although I already know I want to keep the ones I’ve got

Itchy says: “best you get over to my mum’s and catalogue books .. whilst I sit in the sun with an iced tea!”

Cat says: lol

Itchy says:  nice just to have a ‘nothing’ day

Itchy says: last 8 days have been mental

Cat says: but I’ve got to work tonight

Cat says: but I know what you mean

Itchy says: awww

Cat says: and.it.will.be.dead!

Cat says: which means i will be extra rude!

Itchy says: hehe

Cat says: especially as my “stalker” is no longer talking to me!!!!

Itchy says: ?

Cat says: long story .. but

Cat says: you know I’ve blogged about going to see Chelsea

Cat says: well since I “split” from Pig .. he obviously thinks he’s in with a chance (not if he was the last man on earth!) ..

Cat says: well, Madness are playing at local racecourse on 7th august

Cat says: last year it was UB40, but I was too crap to organise anything

Cat says: this year I’ve ordered tickets, people have paid .. there was a list ..

Cat says: he wasn’t on the list but reckoned he was …

Itchy says: oh dear

Cat says: so this week I ordered 5 more (at a cost of £110) .. and sent a text to those people who hadn’t paid or thought they wanted one ..

Cat says: I got pathetic texts off him saying “if it’s easier I won’t go” .. errrrrrr I’ve ordered the effing tickets!!!

Cat says: then on Tuesday I got a “I hear you are going out with The Admirer” text ..

Cat says: and?????

Itchy says: :s

Cat says: last night he ignored me completely (fine) .. and I sold his ticket to someone else .. hahaha

Itchy says: hehe

Cat says: sorry if he wasn’t so pathetic it would be sad

Cat says: sorry – funny

Cat says: actually it is funny

Itchy says: i’m going to have to get up now…. feeling guilty for sitting about

Cat says: lol .. yeah, right

Cat says: but I am boring you

Itchy says: nope