Thank you ..
I know, I know, I know! I’m just not great at doing – ok?!
From the place that I was 18 months ago, I am a lot stronger!
I hate golf! I hate golf clubs! It would appear that they are dens of iniquity .. all the women are out to shag whoever, and the men ditto! .. AND AND AND THEY ALL HAVE THEIR HEADS UP THEIR ARSES!
The Admirer has been a complete arse today. He knows that “I know” but how, he is confuddled!
I sent him a text earlier today (and “accidentally” missed his call) ..
“Hope your day is wonderful and that you have a fruitful evening that’s not too boring. Xxx”
I got some crappy message from him, saying he “didn’t know what was wrong” … WRONG!
All I can say (Admirer) is, I hope your shag with Marina, Peta .. or her daughter (or all 3) .. is well worth it! (this is the previous part of the text I omitted earlier .. it’s actually just childish, hormonal 12 year old speak amongst the “boys” who are MEN! .. it’s not a joke .. IT’S DIS-RESPECTFUL TO ALL CONCERNED! .. especially as Steven Hoatson is married!) .. look up Effingpig (change the last 3 letters!) golf club! (to those not in the know .. it’s ham!)
The only problem is .. I’m not supposed to know about his disrespectfulness towards me (or others)! which makes it difficult.
I spoke to a friend who knows the person The Admirer said “hello gorgeous” to … she was gobsmacked (and adds to my feelings that it “was not right”)!
It’s my birthday in just under a month .. he’s asking me what I “want” (er .. nothing (and nothing from you!) .. he’s asking me what I want to do .. I suggested something .. a meal with two of my friends and two of his friends (who know each other) .. but now I just want to say .. “I vant to be alone”!
Am I cutting off my nose to spite my face??? I think not!
So if anyone wants to invite me anywhere for the weekend of 17th July .. do so now! (lol)
PS: A little giggle I had to myself (and did in fact read out to Twatface) was in this Sunday’s NewsoftheScrews! Lorraine Tighe of The Apprentice was asked some questions .. one of them was “have you ever lied about a terrible gift?” Her reply was that an ex gave her some orange earrings for her birthday and she said they were lovely .. hoping he was reading she said “now I’d like him to know I thought they were vile” .. somehow, somewhere, The Admirer took that one on board (.. read earlier post regarding watch (I can’t be bothered to link on the laptop .. )
I am strong.
I am a good person (ish)
I DON’T NEED HIS SHIT!
Having “missed” 3 calls earlier from him (in response to my .. “your message cut off” and “thanks” and “enjoy”, I sent him the following ..
I sent you a text earlier to say i hoped you had a good first day back and that your ‘bonding’ tonight went well. I missed your call earlier as i was driving and the message cut off. Have a good time x
Am I playing games? Am I behaving like a 12 year old .. yes! But he’s of an age too that he is responsible for his own actions.
How I am going to get around my “knowing” of stuff, I am not sure .. because if it was a “one off” I could accept it – IT ISN’T!
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Come to LA!
there is no easy way to handle this. It all depends on what you want. Why are you avoiding the confrontation? Are you hoping he’ll crack from your mindgames and confess? Are you hoping more evidence accumulates so you can BAM! hit him with it all – a watertight case so to speak? Are you hoping he’ll drop the other woman and run back to you?
Whatever you choose you have to do something soon. The mindgames you’re playing will only serve to have YOU tying yourself in knots. This has to be dealt with for YOUR sake (cos, frankly, screw him)
Decide what the best possible outcome for you is first: 1. do you want to kick him out on his arse and never see him again (this may be the best and most satisfying). In which case you may need to wait for more evidence to accumulate and then you can explode with impunity.
2. Do you want him to fall on his knees and kiss your feet and promise never to misbehave again (also satisfying but tricky to accomplish if his heart’s not in it)
Keeping him dangling is doing you no good. I know. I’ve been in a rather similar situation myself and I avoided doing anything for such a long time I made myself ill. Don’t make my mistake. Deal with this properly.
Email me if you want to talk more about it.
I really, really, really do not like this guy.