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Posted April 21, 2008
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He’s got to be on drugs!

Posted March 18, 2008
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Pig: “I miss talking to you.  Sorry”

I’d really like to know what he’s talking about in that text .. we don’t .. and never have to be honest!

(I’ve tried to be as un-communicative as possible for the last week or so as not to give him any reason for false hope, but to be fair I’ve just acted the same as I would normally!)

I so want him to go to the pub, get pissed, come home late and me be able to say “THERE, THAT’S WHY I WANT TO LEAVE YOU!” but I don’t think he will be going there any time soon!

The house is ..

Posted March 18, 2008
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being mended as I write .. so why has it taken 2 years and me telling him our relationship was over to do it?

“No, I do not want to go for a meal tonight .. what is the point, we never go out .. why start now?”

“No, I do not want you to start buying me flowers, they are lovely, but why now, the second bunch in 10 years?”

Oh, yeah .. I told you it was over!  It’s hard to be cruel, but I have to.

It doesn’t make me happy.

I’m officially

Posted March 17, 2008
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a tart!  But that is all I am going to say on the matter!

Shit.Fuck.Bollox! or just a mid-life crisis?

Posted March 13, 2008
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Pig has spoken to our financial advisor .. it can’t be done .. me or him buying the other out .. although I haven’t actually had words with mum about exactly how far she is prepared to go on the financial side of things .. just that on what we earn singly, we wouldn’t get the mortgage to cover things … and then there’s bills on top.  So we do the place up and sell it .. that’s fine by me .. BUT!

Then comes the emotional blackmail and questions (and please believe me .. some of these questions I am asking myself!)

  • When did I start feeling like this?
  •  Why is it happening now?
  • What is going to happen to the cat? *it always comes back to him .. not that he’s not very cute and all, but??*
  • He’d always seen us growing old together
  • Is there anything he can do to change things?
  • He still loves me and always has *he’s had a funny way of showing it*
  • blah … blah … blah!

So last night and this morning, I’ve mainly been in tears!

Oh .. and is it a good thing to have lost 8lbs in 7 days?

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