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Moving ..

Have had some good e:mails today between a girl who is renting a room, and myself.  It’s reasonably local and I will be able to go back to my doctor who was great.

I’ve had the offer of help to move my few paltry bits.  I’m going to view it tomorrow evening .. post will probably come up around tomorrow midnight but the room is ready and waiting to go, so in theory I could move in asap!  My little sister lives miles away and is, quite frankly, a miserable cow (more miserable than me) and Saturday night wasn’t great, although she did text to say she would be less miserable on Sunday .. so that was never really an option.

I’m feeling calmer and the more he says that he does love me and care for me very much, “he can’t live like this any more”!!!  The more I harden.

Actually guys, neither can I, neither can I and I am ready to move on.

(and being sad I signed up to Dating Direct today!!!) roflmao .. just need a laugh!

The unfortunate thing is I’m pretty certain I’ve not eaten since Tuesday night when I had dinner with Dan and the Soupster 😦

So, where to go now?? …

It’s been a funny old week!

On Monday the Receiver came into our office (eventually), where my boss and his son also sit, and shut the door.  He started with his spiel about what was going on, what he was doing, what he was doing with the staff, he looked at me and said “sadly I have no need to keep you on”.  I had accepted this outcome, it was no surprise to me .. my boss however shrunk, went bright red and started sweating!  After a few minutes I deemed it was acceptable for me to “take a fag break” and leave them to it – what was there for me to say, or stay for??

Eventually the meeting ended and I had a brief (very) conversation with the Receiver, where I admitted that I knew he wouldn’t need me and I didn’t have a problem with it (particularly – because anyone who’s read anything I’ve written about my boss knows he’s a cun wanker).  However he did say that he had told the boss that he was responsible for me and should make amends!   So having gone back to my desk my ex-boss (totally shrunken and defeated) said he would pay me “cash” to continue working for him for the foreseeable future, including making up any shortfall on my usual monthly wage.  The Administrator and Reciever are at loggerheads and the amount I will get paid this month is debatable.  I semi-agreed to this without being able to say much – I was put on the spot.  At lunchtime I deemed it was ok to go home to “think” .. actually meet a few friends for a drink and talk the situation over.

On Tuesday morning I went into work and told my boss that I would work until the end of the month, with him paying me cash for the 2 weeks.  I need a bit of time off, I don’t want to work for him any more and to lapse into a situation where I am being loyal and faithful, but can be shafted at any moment by not having a contract etc etc etc is out.of.order.  He accepted it very easily .. gulping and going red at the same time.  He looked shocked when I told him of my plan to a) possibly go to France and help some friends with their Gites or b) do “care work” for another friend’s company.  I suppose he thought I wouldn’t be able to find something too easily.  His son was suitably embarrassed too!

For my part I haven’t filed everything in the bin, just work related stuff, his personal stuff I have filed (but then I’m like that!).  Everything is backed up on the computer anyway, so his son can deal with it when I am gone.  I am upset at the way I have been treated and I shall be leaving people I like and who like me.  Two tenants gave me a hug when I told them I was going – which set me off – so I’ve told everyone to be really nasty to me next week but there will be tears I fear.  It’s been 7 years!  AND!

On The Admirer front – he says he’s being supportive, but a text from a joint friend to say they’d seen my status update and was I ok, garnered the reply “Dont know as not spoken for a while, will be home shortly to find out! Shame she has only known for a year it was going to happen and has done f all about it !”

Errrr???? I have been looking for a new job (but there actually haven’t been that many out there), but when this was officially on the cards there seemed a reason to stay for the time being .. ie redundancy!  I’m assured a “reasonable” payout from the State – BEARING IN MIND THAT SINCE THE AGE OF 20 I HAVE PAID BOTH MY TAXES AND NATIONAL INSURANCE WITH NO CLAIM ON THE STATE!

He also got the hump about my “possibly” going to France!  When was I going to tell him about this???  Err, when I had decided – it’s a whim, it is doable and I might regret not doing it!  In that case “don’t bother coming back” .. oh grow up!!!

We went to see Paul Heaton (he of the Housemartins and Beautiful South) last Wednesday at The Plough in Coldharbour, on his Pedals and Pumps tour (bringing the local pub back into the limelight).  It was fantastic and I was watching/listening from the minute the support band came on.  Paul Heaton was awesome.  He only did 2 “oldies” but the new stuff was fantastic too.  The pub we were in was owned by 2 members of his (up-its-arse) golf club .. and there were several members there too.  Cue me being wound up!  I got a (bit – not rip-roaringly) drunk (on wine which I don’t drink in huge quantities).  When I am drunk, apparently I become clumsy (who doesn’t) .. sorry???? Did I let you down or say something to anyone I shouldn’t??? (and who the fcuk are they to judge me anyway???)  Anyway .. was anyone else from “his” crowd out there freezing their watsits off listening to a complete god???? …. NO!  So what I was doing was of no importance to anyone but me! 

Last night I said I would cook a roast as he was going to be home late.  The way it is in our house, I do the meat generally and he does the veg.  I had prepared the chicken and the oven was cooking the chicken.  I had peeled the spuds, parsnips etc and had worked out the timings.  He came in and said he would do the roast potatoes and that I was to go and sit down and start watching the film that started at 9 so I could tell him how it started (Invasion – twas ok!) .. he then said, “aren’t you cooking dinner?” … er, you told me to start watching the film!  So please, am I not allowed to be confused by that????  Apparently I spoilt the evening by being confused.  Was I supposed to be cooking the dinner or watching the film?  They are in 2 different rooms.  I CANNOT do both!

Anyway, there is more and when I get my head around it I will blog.  I just love the way it’s all “me” that’s got the problem or got it wrong .. never him … I feel France coming on! 😀

Cat has security .. at a price!

I’ve got my place .. it’s amazing what you notice when you start to really look .. how BADLY Linden Homes finish their places (and how they can’t remember the fit-out spec 5 years on – I know who, what, when and where we furnished commercial property 15 years on!)  .. how crap estate agents are .. and how dis-interested some sellers are!

Anyway .. two weeks to the hour almost I have a tenant!!!

Having given the place a cursory clean, arranged for someone to give it a lick of paint (until that point no point in giving a deep clean) .. and attempting (not too badly) to clean the living room carpet .. I get a call – telling me how disgusting the place is – BUT – someone wants to rent it .. tomorrow!!!!

So, I am now in a state of panic .. the decorator has said he would do it this (last) week .. and he has indeed done a fantastic job.  I have a new living room carpet being installed this weekend, a gas certificate organised .. tiling getting sorted ..

HOWEVER .. the tenant wants it furnished and my intention was unfurnished (however the useless, rude, estate agents reckon I can get more for it furnished – so what the hell (and also the bolt hole thingy))!  The Tenant has been sent down from Leeds for 6 to 8 months with 1.5 weeks notice (where she has a house with a partner and doesn’t want to furnish a second property) .. so I get to go shopping! 😀 .  The client put her in the mingingest B&B possible (not too difficult around here .. so she decamped to a £140 a night hotel!) The tenant is also a lawyer .. the tenant thinks she can get the client to agree to a “non-rented retainer” .. as her situation happens  A.L.O.T!  So I am in a state of semi-panic!  She’s moving in on Wednesday .. bless the carpet fitters .. I got from them a very reasonable deal on the carpet, ditto a bed, table and chairs and a sofa (£30) so at least she has something to sit on until I can sort something properly and the fitters will deliver when they fit the carpet – so I am off shopping for crockery, cutlery, pots and pans .. does this sound like I’m nesting????

The Admirer has been ……………………… ok .. but I’m not sure he’s happy!  Mum and sisters are – that’s what matters!  I’ve not slept much since Tuesday because my head has been going round and round, I’m tired, I’m grumpy – it’s ok for him to be, but not for me!  Up till this point things in the relationship have been really quite good.

The good things .. rental which will cover all my costs (she’s paying more than the asking rent for furnishing it) .. a furnished flat (for me) .. I get to go shopping .. (except I have a funeral this afternoon and will have dish-pan hands tomorrow from cleaning) 😦  I have a holiday in 2 weeks with my 80 year old mother .. and money in the bank.

On another matter .. my company is due to fold .. today!  They are talking about re-employing us under another company .. errrr .. how do I tell my boss I don’t want to work for him???? 😉

I’m soo much calmer in myself tho and happier! Which is good! 😀

Angry, Angry, really really Angry!

The Admirer had a week off last week and as “last minute” deals were very expensive, I suggested that we went down to my mum’s place in Swanage .. which is free.  Ok, so it’s not the most exciting place in the world, but it was peaceful and stressless ..

We (or I had supposed) were having a good time.  Then yesterday, by the powers known ony to me (ok, so I was snooping), I found this text he sent on Friday to his boss ..

The first bit is in reference to a “do” he is going to tonight .. which is part of the angry bit ..

“Hmmm, not for me ta! Is her daughter going? See you monday. By the way, bored silly, only rugby tomorrow keeping me going!”

So, after my last post, you can see that I’m a little wound up right now!

Day Out ..

S, having got a day off on Friday suggested that we do something, or go somewhere and what did I want to do.

Several suggestions were put forward and it was decided that we would go to Hever Castle .. former home of Anne Boleyn, haunt of Henry the VIII … all I can say is “what a disappointment”!

Some American bought the place in the early 1900’s and has turned it into a “museum” of his stuff!  Only about 2 rooms were dedictated (very limply) to Anne Boleyn and Henry VIII!

The gardens and outside of the building were very beautiful, but the rest of it .. lame!

We had more fun in Brighton on the pier, playing silly arcade games!